Soon.

Dear love,
How have you been?
Which part of the world are you in right now?
How many countries have you traveled to?
How many people have you met halfway?
Was the people out there nice to you?
Wherever you are now,
Or whatever you're up to,
I hope life always treats you kind.
I know we haven't met before,
But will you sit here and hear my story?
Earlier this afternoon,
When I'm busy typing out my assignment due to consumer psychology deadlines,
The thought of you suddenly coming down in flash.
I'm thinking of how good it would be if you were here with me right now.
No,
By this time, 

I don't mean you helping me to finish my assignment and stuffs,

What I really mean is just the two of us,
With two cups of hot coffee,
And my typewriter,
Enjoying each other's presence,
Even when in silence.
I want to tell you,
That I don't know what the ideal dating is supposed to be like.

All I know is to be always by your side,
On your darkest days and nights,
When you're being stubborn and very hard to love,
I promise,
To always hold you tight.
I won't get mad if you forget to clean up the dishes,
Or scold you for coming home too late from work,
Or being dramatic over our little fights.
I won't throw the harsh words at you,
Or blame you for something you didn't do,
Cause I will always respect you,
Honour you,
And make you feel like a man.
Because soon,
I'll call your name like I've been calling your name forever.
Soon,
My heart will be yours and yours will be all mine,
Soon,
'I will' is what I'm gonna say to you
Without any hesitation,
Any doubts,
Or any second thoughts.
When the sun shines and its a beautiful day,
And you get down on one knee,
Asking me to be your everything.
Soon,
I'll learn to love your family,
As much as I love mine.
Soon,
We'll be dancing under the moon lights,
In our favorite PJ's,
Like nobody's ever watching us.
Soon,
I will tuck you to bed,
And sing you to sleep.
Soon,
I will make you breakfast,
With an extra love,
And an extra smile on my face.
Soon,
We'll be sitting in the kitchen floor,
Waiting for our cakes to be done,
And listening to our favorite tunes.
Soon,
Nothing in this world will be matter.
Our past, our old mistakes, our insecurities, our old trauma.

And there'll be only two of us

Taking on the world together.

Ps : I know you're looking for me, too.

Quotes Collection (Mostly Taken from Books & Inspiring People)

"Some of us think holding on makes us stronger. But sometimes, it is letting go"- Teddi Prasetya Yuliawan.

"Kasih sejati tercermin dari perilaku anda saat berinteraksi dengan orang-orang 'tak penting'"- Arvan Pradiansyah on The 7 Laws of Happiness.

"Semua orang ingin mengubah dunia, tetapi tidak seorangpun yang terpikir untuk mengubah dirinya sendiri." -Leo Tolstoy.

"Menyayangi adalah..
Melepaskan orang yang kita sayang dari bayang-bayang kita
Dan menjadi diri mereka sendiri" - Arvan Pradiansyah on The 7 Laws of Happiness.

"Hidup ini tidak pernah tentang mengalahkan siapapun. Hidup ini hanya tentang kedamaian dihati. Saat kamu mampu berdamai, maka saat itulah kamu telah memenangkan seluruh pertempuran." - Tere Liye.

"You can curse the darkness, or you can light a candle"

"The harder you work, the luckier you get"

"As you want to plan your life,
It has a way of surprising you with an unexpected things that will make you happier than you originally planned
Thats what you call GOD's plan."

"You can't rush something you want to last forever"

"At your absolute best, you still wont be good enough for the wrong person
At you worst, you still be worth it for the right person"

"When someone else's happiness is your happiness, that's love" - Lana Del Ray.

 "Tidak ada yang bisa menyakiti hati seseorang yang sabar; fisiknya bisa, tapi jiwanya utuh." - Tere Liye.

"One day you will understand why Allah closed certain doors, and you will thank Him for it."

"A good woman is irreplaceable and a good man knows it. He may be able to find a subtitute, but everyone knows that there is no subtitute for the real thing." - Mr. Amarisoul.

Breathe In Poetry.

You left her there. She gave you everything, and you took your hint of guilt and left behind a goodbye and a broken girl.

Maybe it didn't hit you at first. Sure, you slept while she stayed up. Your pillows didn't stain with tears. Your shower didn't end in sobs. Your stomache didn't crave in every morning. Your heart didn't ache every breathe.

But maybe you run into her months down the line. Maybe you hear about her new love, the news spilling across the floor like a new stain on the carpet she used to tread on. Maybe, you meet her on the coffee shop and she stopped cutting her hair, and it trails down her back like the past she used to left you behind in. And the heart ache isn't hers anymore. Her smile reaches her eyes now and her laugh light up the room.

You forgot, didn't you?you forgot the way she held you the night you couldn't fall asleep. You forgot the way she covers her mouth when she laughs, the way she cups her hand on the mugs to keep her fingers warm, the way her hand always a little bit cold.

Oh, but you'll remember. And maybe if you're lucky, you wont be holding something fragile when you hear the news. Maybe if you're lucky,your heart will only ache for a fraction as long as hers did. Maybe if you're lucky, she'll pick up when you call. But even if she still has all the tenderness for you in the world, her voice is not the same. She doesn't love you anymore. You lost her. And you can't ever get her back.

breatheinpoetry by Poems Porn

Favorite Words

12 Facts You Never Know about Me.

1. I bite my nails everytime I feel scared, depressed, or angry. That's why I never have good nails like another girls. My nails are always crap and bloody.
2. I act like I dont know everything but I actually do, and sometimes, I know it even better than you.
3. I've been dreaming of owning a house full of cats.
4. I speak to my cats.
5. I tend to always give an endless chance to someone even when they don't deserve it. I forgive them easily, too. But when I've finally had courage to leave them, I leave and never turn my head to comeback.
6. Sometimes I say yes to other but I say no to myself.
7. I love surrounded by people with passion. I love seeing how their eyes light up when they talk about something they love. It suddenly gives me positive energy.
8. Tall guys with tan skin and pointed nose are always be my bf type (only my bestfriend knows this).
9. I spend 24/7 reading quotes and poems.
10. I like being grumpy and annoying to my little sist. But what I can't tell her is I love her and always want to protect her.
11. I love cooking and I used to join a cooking class. Now I don't even have time for it.
12. I'm a good stalker. So beware. Don't you ever mess with me because I take lurking to the next level. I look at your comments, click on your page, read your status, go through your likes, see and capture everything on your profile.

A Love Letter to My Mother.

"To the most frustratingly stubborn, infurlatingly argumentative, powerfully charming, painfully smart, devastatingly beautiful, extraordinarily caring, hilariously witty, undyingly supportive and strong-willed woman that I have ever known."

Dear Mom,

These days I learned about how much I depend on you when you're far away from me. I learned to admit the feeling of needing you better than anyone, more than anything in this whole world. Because for me, you're not just a mother. You're my bestfriend, my best listener, my teacher, my anchor, and my number one confidant. You're the strongest, the most beautiful woman I've ever known. You're relentlessly compassionate, gentle, and kind. You're the high definition of how a woman can be tough but still have a heart pure of gold. You're the definition of how a woman can be soft, but never weak or helpless.

You taught me to use my heart in every single thing I do. To always be soft, to see the good in every people I meet, and if I couldn't find it, then I had to look harder. Because of you, I learn that not every people who came into our life will come along with a good intention for us, but thats fine. Because no matter how bad they treated us, there are still many reasons to treat them otherwise. It's you who always taught me that being kind has nothing to do with other people. It's us who should treat other people with love and respect, no matter what they look like, where they come from, or the stains of their past.

You taught me that a woman should be strong, self sufficient, independent, and fearless. Because of you, I know that a woman has a power do whatever they want to do in life or be anything they want to be. Nothing should hold back their potential. Not a man, not even a gender stereotype that she was just 'a woman'.

You taught me to live my life honorably. To do the right thing even when no one's looking. To always speak the truth regardless of how hard it is. And to always have courage to stand up for myself and others even when the whole world demands us to be silence. Because of you, I'm not afraid stand for what is right for me even though I know the whole world are against me. I'm not scared to have my own opinions and speak up or fight for my personal beliefs. You told me there's nothing to be scared about being the only one who stand alone and do the right thing, because someday, they might be the one following us.

Thankyou for setting the perfect example of what kind of woman your girls should be when they grow up. You're the one I have always looked up to. The only person in the world who understands me better than anyone. The hug I'm seeking when I feel happy or teribbly sad, and the smile I'm looking for after going thru a bad day. You have no idea how much I was lucky to be your daughter and have your presence in every single day of my life. Thankyou for everything you do and you have done for me, Mum. I love you beyond words and I thank God every single day for making me your daughter. Can't wait to see you soon.

My Wish-list in 2016.

1. Turning off my cellphone more often.
2. Being more diligent& productive.
3. Making my own money. (Though I still dont know how)
4. Doing something important each day. (It's a must!)
5. Improving my english skills.
6. Going to course.
7. Joining organization that will be beneficial to my future.
8. Making new friends.
9. Saving money. (This might be the hardest part)
10. Buying gift to people.
11. Making people smile.
12. Being a sweet daughter & sister.
13. Praying on time.
14. Doing all the 'Sunnah'.
15. Making my parents proud.

Wish me luck.

Mental Ilness

Mental ilness has been the highlight of the day because there are people who blamed it to be the exact cause of many suicidal cases that happened recently. People thought many cases of suicide out there had something to do with Major Depressive Disorder or can we simply called it 'Depression'. In truth, depression is not the only kind of Mental Ilness we should be aware of, because there are still many kind of mental ilness that most people never know or notice, so people tend to be misunderstanding about it.

And now as a psychology student, I want to talk about mental ilness in general, only based on my learning experience. This is not going to be scientific articels because I'm not yet an expert about it. I'm still a college student who's still learning about this as well as you are. So if you find out some mistakes in this post, please kindly correct me.

Lets get start to talk about mental ilness.

First of all, what is Mental Ilness?

Mental ilness are diseases or conditions that affect how you think, act, feel, or relate to other people or to your surroundings.

Mental ilness has no exact causes because it can be causes by genes, biology, parenting, environment, etc. Symptoms can range from mild to serve. Some common symptoms include uncommon behaviour (statistically rare happens), abusing alcohol or drugs (self defeating behaviour), hallucinations or delusions, thoughts of suicide or harming themselves or others, etc. 

There are many classification of mental ilness, but I just want to describe the three kind of them, which are :

1. Anxiety Disorder
Anxiety Disorder is a type of mental ilness where people respond to certain object or situation with fear, as well as physical signs of anxiety or panic, such as a rapid heartbeat and sweating. What differ them from normal people who has anxiety is, people with anxiety disorder feels anxiety in the extreme way so it can be distraction for their normal life. Their fears are uncontrollable and can't be stopped. Anxiety disorder is classified into 5 type; Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), Panic Disorder, Obsessif-Compulsive Disorder, Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PSD) and Phobias Disorder.  

2. Personality Disorder
Personality Disorder is a type of mental ilness when the person's patterns of thinking and behaviour is different from expectation of society and so rigid. DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorder) divided Personality Disorder into 3 groups.
Group A : consists of people who are considered odd or eccentric.
This group includes Paranoid Personality Disorder, Schizoid Personality Disorder, and Schizotypal Personality Disorder.
Group B : consists of people who are dramatic, emotional, and eratic.
This group includes Antisocial Personality Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Histrionic Personality Disorder, and Narcissistic Personality Disorder.
Group C : consists of people who looks anxious or frightened.
This group includes Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder, Dependent Personality Disorder, and Avoidant Personality Disorder.

3. Mood Disorder
Mood Disorder is a type of mental ilness that can be easily recognized by mood swings, involve persistent feelings of sadness or periods of feeling overly happy, or fluctuations from extreme happiness to extreme sadness. Mood disorder is classified into 2 type, Unipolar Disorder and Bipolar Disorder. Unipolar Disorder includes Major Depressive Disorder and Distimic Disorder, while Bipolar Disorder includes Bipolar Disorder and Cyclothymic Disorder.

The big three of the most common mental ilness I've mentioned above has different causes and treatment as well. So if you felt like you can relate to one of them because it's really happening to you, please talk to someone to get some help. Whether you go to a psychologist to get the right treatment or you just can discuss it with your relatives, family, or close friends. Don't take mental ilness easily because it can be dangerous for you. Have courage and speak up.

Most cases of suicide happened because they keep everything to themselves, even when they had Major Depressive Disorder or serve depression. They keep all the loathe, sadness, and anger to themselves. And when they felt like they can't take that anymore, they ended up their life by committing suicide. But we can prevent this, sure we can. Family support and social support will be necesarry, perhaps will be as important as psychological treatment.

And for all people, please be aware of everybody around you. If you find your friend, or your sister, or your neighbour, or your boyfriend, or anyone show you the symptoms of any kind of mental ilness, please comfort them, be there for them, listen to them, and don't make them feel like they're all alone. You can be the one who accompany them to see psychologist to get them the right treatment. We can save one live. We can save their lives. Lets do that, shall we?

Truth About Hard Times.

Truth about hard time is,
Its not when you think this life knocks your wind out of you and kicks you when you're down.
Nor when you think the world is vicious, unforgiving, and merciless.
Or when you think the universe collapses beneath your front doors.

Truth about hard time is,
Its not the time when you lose everything you loved.
Nor the time when you don't exactly know who you are anymore.
Or the time when all your hopes for the worlds are gone.

Because truth about hard time is,
Its not there to weaken you,
Its not there to gently eat your souls,
Nor to make you feel so small,
Or make you feel any less than human.

Because truth about hard time is,
Its supposed to challenge you,
Its supposed to grow you,
And take the best out of you.

Its supposed to light the candle beneath your souls,
And ignite the fire inside your bones.

Because truth about hard time is,
It will pass,
It will be easy,
It will always be okay.

Because truth about hard time is,
It wont ever leave you broken.
It will leave you stronger,
Tougher,
Wiser,
And more beautiful,
Than ever.

One Day.

I hope one day,
You give your heart
To someone
And they will hold it tight
As if its their own

I hope one day
You wake up
And have something
Or someone to live for

I hope one day
You can go to bed
Smiling without any worry
In the world

I hope one day
The battle is over
And you have won

I hope one day
You will meet someone
Who makes you realise
How beautiful you truly are

Facts You Never Know About Me.

1. I bite my nails everytime I feel scared, depressed, or angry. That's why I don't have perfect nails like another girls. My nails are always crap and bloody. But full disclosure; I'm not ashamed of it.
2. I always act like I don't care about what's going on arround me. But truth is, I actually do. I pay attention. I do observe quietly, until sometimes I end up knowing it even better than everybody.
3. I've always dreamed of owning a house full of cats and spending the rest of my life with them. That'd be a perfect definition of my "perfect life".
4. I speak to my cats. I understand what they are saying.
5. I tend to always give an endless chance to someone even when they don't deserve it. I forgive them easily, too. But when I've finally had courage to leave, I leave and never turn my head to comeback.
6. Sometimes I say yes to other but I say no to myself, simply because I don't wanna hurt or reject anyone. It sucks.
7. I love being surrounded by people with passion. I love seeing how their eyes light up when they talk about something they love. It suddenly gives me positive vibes and energy.
8. Tall guys with tan skin and pointed nose are always be my bf type (only my bestfriend knows this).
9. I spend 24/7 reading quotes and poems.
10. I love being grumpy and annoying to my little sist. But I guess it's just a way to show her I love her. She's my one and only.
11. I love cooking and I used to join a cooking class. Now I don't even have time for it.

12. I had this simple rule; text me first or we won't talk. So don't bother expecting me to text or call you first. I will NEVER do that.

13. I push people away just to make sure if they're coming back to me. But if they don't, they simply don't deserve a place in my life.

14. I can't sleep with lights off. Because just like a 10 year old kid out there, I'm still terrified of the dark.

15. I'm a good stalker. So beware. Don't you ever mess with me because I take lurking to the next level. I look at your comments, click on your page, read your status, go through your likes, see and capture everything on your profile.

My 2nd Speech! "Beauty vs Brain"

Assalamualaikum wr.wb.

Good morning honorable juries, teachers and audience.

Bismillahirahmanirrahiim

In the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful. All praises be to Allah SWT, the lord of the world, the master of the day after, and the creator of everything in this universe.

Peace and salutation be upon our prophet Muhammad SAW, who has brought us from the darkness to the brightness, and guided us into the right way of life.

Audience, in this opportunity I’d like to deliver a speech under the topic of  “Beauty vs Brain”

Ladies and gentleman,

If God gave us ability and we had to choose ,which one would you prefer?would you prefer your looks or your personality? your beauty or your brain? Maybe half of us will be so confused to choose, because half of  people think that beauty is the most advantegous and the other think that brain is more important. In reality, nowadays people give value to looks more than personality. Nowadays people give more chance to the beautiful one than the intelligent one. It’s sad that we live in a world where looking good gets you further in life than being intelligent. How could it all be like this? This situation mostly happens because we always judge the book by it's cover. We tend to see the looks first, but we never care about its content. But when it comes to me to choose whether the beauty or the brain, I will not hesitate to choose the brain. Here in my speech, I’ll tell you 3 reasons why brain is so much better than beauty.

On the first reason, brain is so much better than beauty because brain is countable in most of the areas or most stages of human life. Brain is something that’s real. Brain enables you to improve many different things in life. The experience you have, the books you read, and the classes you take will continue throughout your life, and will only add to your brain power. It is said that beauty is only skin deep, which implies that if things on the outside change, then there will be no more beauty. I believe it is much more important to develop your thinking skills than to put too much into making yourself more attractive.

The second reason is, brain lasts longer for a lifetime, while beauty can be decreased by aging. Everybody will grow old, and the beauty tends to change as long as you grow old, but the brain doesn’t. We're still able to increase our IQ, memory, and knowledge even when we are getting old.

Then the last reason, when people just respect us because our appearance, but when it starts to fade, we will surely lose the respect. Someone would found himself hopeless and worthless with his faded beauty. Nothing would remain to him ultimately, because those people will forget and leave them.

Ladies and gentleman,

And the conclusion that I’ll speak up on my speech today is, its proven that brain is so much important than beauty. I think its good to have a pretty face, but its better to have a pretty face with intelligence. Because of a brain, someone is different from a beast only for his brain that makes him learn to differentiate between good and evil. Physical beauty is an added quality. And a beautiful appearance with no brains is useless.

Last but not least, let me add a quote that says. “Intelligent will never stop being beautiful’

I think its enough for my speech today, I’m asking for your apologies and forgiveness if you found out so many mistakes in my speech. Thank you for your attention.

Wassalamualaikum wr.wb.

Pecundang dan Pemenang.

Pecundang selalu khawatir dengan perubahan, pemenang selalu tidak sabar menanti perubahan.

Pecundang selalu berada dibelakang, pemenang selalu tampil didepan.

Pecundang selalu berada di zona nyaman, pemenang senang berada di daerah tantangan.

Pecundang selalu berkata "Bagaimana kalau gagal?", Pemenang selalu berpikir "Bagaimana agar bisa sukses".

Pecundang menjawab "Tidak bisa", Pemenang berkata "Harus bisa".

Pecundang menolak "Jangan saya", Pemenang menantang "Mengapa bukan saya?"

Pecundang lebih senang menunggu sesuatu terjadi, pemenang menciptakan sesuatu terjadi.

Pecundang membuat statement, pemenang melaksanakan komitmen.

Pecundang menunggu segalanya sempurna, pemenang memulai dengan apa yang dimiliki.

Pecundang menghindar, pemenang bersaing.

Pecundang berkata "Nanti dulu", pemenang berteriak "Sekarang".

Pecundang mengoleksi slogan, pemenang memperbanyak tindakan.

Source: A Book tittled "Ubah Slogan Menjadi Tindakan" by Sulaiman Budiman.

Heroes.

Is it just me, or is there anyone out there thinking they're really superheroes?